I am listening the three album of famous duo, M.Y.M.P., that is stored to my ate’s mini ipod. Its almost eleven quarter in the evening. I have nothing to do, for such reason I slept the whole afternoon. Yup I am a big bump person. I have things to finish but I am not doing it. Its because I can’t find the master, momentum, that triggers me to write my very own paper. So, that I can get my masters degree and move on to another step of my life, hmm what would be that?.... But, let me first leave that, just let it sit on that that corner side and I’ll just go back on that soon and that’s a promise but not this moment okay.
There are lots of things I wanted to say and do in my life. But, i just can’t do it. The reason is that…I can’t easily express it. I envy nga those people have the courage to face the real life. Meaning, the real situations that their lives are undergoing. it may sound difficult but still they able to walk, run, and even stand it with full confident and have this power to face the real struggle in life. I salute you! Hay….life in this world is really hard. Anyway, we are here because we deserve to live and enjoy it even how difficult it may sound. But, I guess it’s the way it should. so that, we can easily learn the things we have right now. and that why, I am trying my very best to figure it out and what really are the things that I need to work on, more?, not just for myself but I guess to the people also that I meet in my journey in life.
Honestly, I didn’t see myself that I can be in UP diliman studying. Harbouring my very own thoughts, then, let my creative mind ruled over my life and sometimes some people said “with flying colours”. Hahahahaha! It’s the reward of being part of it. Well, its funny, but its true. There are times when I was alone walking around and wondering and talking to myself with this famous line “ I can’t imagine that you gab will be part of the real environment of UP”. It may sound supid but I guess even now that famous tag line of mine keep on lurking inside me. Hehehehehe! belonging to the great thinkers, as what people said “belonging to the cream of crop”, here in the Philippines I guess it’s a great pleasure. And yet, I don’t , nor occur in my mind that I belong to the real circle, the nature of being true born peyups!
Coming from an environment that teaches to be “men and women for others” is really hard. Especially, the manner of conversation that people used and even the actions that you’ll do is not just done one overnight sleep. It takes a great effort to overcome and learn all of being true person with dignity and especially the manner of affirming every word that comes out to your mouth had conviction. It may sound that part of me experienced a culture shock but honestly it’s the other way around. It so happen that I am a type of person that can easily adopts an environment what kind it may be. I immediately figure it out the true way of life that peyups people do. I have nothing against to it. I love it! It thought me so many things which I never have in the previous way of life I’ve been through. The real thinkers and the way they talk and converse really amaze me. Still, I can’t hide that there are certain things I don’t agree but it doesn’t mean I don’t respect the way they defend their ideology in life. Still I have this tiny conservative way of thinking and following my beliefs.
Now, I can say that because of the different environment I come through in this journey in life. Still I cannot say that I can easy face tomorrow that holds my path. What I can do is to feel the present time and let tomorrow holds the future. I have already learned from the past I guess let it be a lesson and a challenge for me in facing the real life of tomorrow. So, let me live the way it should be and try to make myself happy. I guess it’s the best possible way of having a life in this world a better one….
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