My rendezvous notion in year 2006

By gab david
December 30, 2006 / 1.46 pm/ hometown, naga city



It is almost 11 in the evening. Actually, looking at my cell phone time, it’s just 10.50. The night was enveloping by the silence. And the ambiance of the room was so cold. Winds from the windows are just passing through and the blinds are stating to dance touching every corner of the double deck where I sleep. I am sitting in front of the computer with nothing in mind. Well, there are a lot of things that keep on running unto my head. But, I really don’t know what to write and where to start. While thinking to this, I said to myself, I need to write something so that I can have something to do while waiting fro the time. Yet, as I stared to touch the keyboard and let my finger do the stroke. Something just comes into my head and commanded my fingers to explore the keyboard that is in front of me. It feels that the water is just beginning to flow and I can’t control it. Feeling every thought I want to say to myself and to the world but who am I to be notice by other people either neither those neighbors nor the entire human being living in this crazy yet happy world. However, who cares of what will others may say or reacts. What is important is that I let my inner thoughts explore its own world and slowly tear it apart, pieces by pieces, while nothing intentions but just a mere naïve feeling inside me. So this “rendezvous” of my inner self and the time that I have now really starts to mend with no one to be blame or even to thank for. It’s what we call coincidence, meeting or even experiencing something that no one ever takes the move. It just happens and the cards were just laid and connection from one situation to another that leads me to this final composition.
To be honest I don’t know where to start as what I have said awhile. But really, until this very moment, I don’t know where this would lead me. Hoping I can have a good output. God knows where to start and it will end. All I want is that let these rushing thoughts of mine be express and be share. Oh, while I am writing this, I am listening to the album of Nina, the new album that comes out in later quarter of this year, that adds burns in my heart and let my inner emotions comes out. And with all these feelings and situation as well as the so called sentimental thing is just flowing like the streams in the mountains that how huge thing will be put in the middle of the way still it will find its way and continue the flow of the water. Anyhow, enough of those metaphors that I know may sound nonsense. So, where am I, I think I am still undecided of what to discuss or even starts? So let me just dross my fingers and hell or even damn, who cares!
Let me start my simple scramble thoughts when I start to go back in my hometown where I let my three-fourths of my life live and experience everything. The few days when I arrived were so difficult. The restless feeling was really eating me and I feel another lousy decision. Leaving my busy and adventurous lifestyle to a complete boring and provincial way of life was really a 360 degrees changes and challenging to me. However, who am I to complain or even somewhat hear my side before the final action should be done. I told you even from the start I am nobody and I just live here in his world because of them and the duty I need to fulfill when the right time comes. Do not ask me when will that be because even I cannot answer you straight or even the exact year but one day you will see it through my eyes. Hoping I am happy even if its may be too hard to carry a happy face. But, it would not change the decision that was done. Its non transferable as always indicated at the back of your identification card of membership card which you always carry in your packet or pouch bag. It may sound naïve because of the things I have been saying and its like there is a huge piece that is missing. Well, let me lead you to my simple world of craziness and the ups and down of my relationship to each and everyone that I met in this travel. I cal this, a living yet lifeless travel of a man who carries the thousand faces even pains are always in his heart.
It was the last day of the month, March this year, when I finally decided to stop and never enter to the office where I stayed for two happy and easy yet challenging works. I am just a graduate assistant in the office of chancellor in one of the premier state university in this country. Oh well, I don’t need to describe where it is because every time there will be a problem in the government especially in terms of political disputes our campus is the center of attention. Thanks to “manong oble”, a statue of a man with a spreading his arm and looking towards the sky, like begging or giving himself to the world. Enough of that, as I was saying, I stayed there for quite sometimes that even thought me so many things and let my turmoil brain cells take an early actions because the famous “critical thinking”, as what my professor are keep on saying, was really born here. My life here is not a bed rose as what others may think. There are times that I just ate one meal for a day and the others is just being put on sleep or make myself busy so that starvation will not be welcome. Yes, that is true, it is not a joke. I just ate my brunch around 10.45 or 11.00 in the morning so that my next meal will be snack at 4.00 which I just drink coffee, with no sugar and no cream, and if I have extra money I buy “suman” so that it would be heavy for me. But, don’t feel bad or be sad about it because there are times that I ate three times or more in one day. Well, of course that only happens every payday. After a long waiting, every end of the month or sometimes first week of the month if it is not delay, and even in bank when I let the check turned to a cold cash. I treat myself. I hurriedly ride in the jeep, philcoa, and eat at chowking. You just laugh when you know what I will order. I will fall in line with a happy face in me waiting for my turn. As I reach the counter and being ask by the cashier what is my order, I am very proud and excited saying “am, good afternoon, can I have a shang hai rolls meal and one pork siomai, one large pineapple juice and can I have a free soup, ops before I forgot am can you add more chili sauce please”. Oh yeah, that’s the best meal every month. Mind you, I have a very low level of happiness. This may sound corny or typical or even cliché still I will denied it for such reason this is simply me. After my ever best meal of the month which only happens every payday. I am, now, again excited and cannot wait for the next payday to come. And the next day, back to the usual routine. Those just some of my memorable experience which I really misses that made me who really I am now. It helped me to strive and learn how to face the reality with smiling face even pains are just in front of my face or even when I open my eyes every morning. But, this never stops me from doing what I want and doing something good to others even in my own little way. That, I can say, being so proud and gained a huge respect in my life.
I know someday this all things will be change in a better life. With that, I just keep repeating to myself and saying and when I finally realize I was already here in my dear hometown. Then, the huge no, no, no inside me, about getting close to woman - meaning trying to court or put myself in a relationship that is from my hometown. Because it just makes me live in the past again, about my eight year long relationship that really spring in my ever hometown, that really give s me once in awhile pains even I wanted to erase it. But, memories are too powerful that even my happiest moment can turn it to the saddest one. I also said that, I don’t want to get in touch with woman here because I know the true color – meaning the true persona of a true blood bicolana that really stops me from engaging in courting. The fear of living alone again as well as losing one’s love and that one will just adds more pains which I’ve been carrying from the past. Even though they said that pains will be wash away when love enters again. But, still I am afraid and fear of getting too close to someone. Honestly, a part of me is saying I need someone because I am human that needs someone at my side, a shoulder to cry on, someone I can exchange some corky jokes and even hold hands while walking. Or something you can hold on every time you need someone to ask fro help and ready to lean on to you with no hesitation in life. Or even exchange funny faces when you just feel like it. Those things that made you so complete and even you are tired from the whole day you go home with a smile in your face because you know someone is at your side saying “I love you” with a big smile in the face. And lastly excited to wake up because a text messages just enters saying, “opening my eyes was never hard because all I can see and think is being with you my sunshine, smile and I can’t wait to see you, I love you”. God knows who the hell created that word. And because of that, each one us is really move and taken our breath away like there would no tomorrow and time will just stop and the moment will just continue and letting the feeling run freely with full of happiness inside your heart and soul. Those feelings which I have just mention is the one that keeping me to move a little step in my life. Because of that, I can barely hide the truth that I once in love and hurt so much and now afraid of trying another.
Another side of my life that I think should be taken out. If square has four sides well I guess my life would have gazillion sides and it’s hard to contemplate each of every side. So, when will I start again? And where should I let my foot step so that I would not be stepping in the wrong ladder? I was just afraid and really desperate of the right path where to follow. For I am so afraid and I think I am in the life of limbo. But, I guess no one can answer my entire question because it I who can answer it and decide where to go. I, myself, have the power to lead my life because it is in my hand for long. I am just blinded by the things that are around me and what I see and hope for.
When I step in this course of life, being a full time “nursing” student, I said to myself that I will just do this not for myself alone but for my family. So, I start last summer and create a better life. A different one from I was used to be. The environment was so different and people are also are different. At first I was in great pains because I am not sure of what I really doing. Again fears have just conquered my way and yes I am being “chicken” of the situation. But, the summer has gone and fortunately I passed my entire subject and perform a very satisfactory. I have met some friends and created my new crowd and friends. All of us are “second courser” as many of us called in the school. Then, the first semester has come again and things were go smoothly as it supposes to be. I am getting my balance and trying to be at the right track but time has “HIS” power and at the late part of semester things have change. The crowds I have, group I used to be, have the biggest challenge and let me to leave them for the sake I need to think of my future. I did a right turn and went to another road with some of friends and joined them leaving my group driving the usual way. At first I am saddened of the drastic action that I took. It was not too easy to decide on it but I need to face the truth or I will suffer in the end and my life will be drain for nothing. As the semester ends I create a new name in the school and regained the ladder which I was standing before. With the help of my new found friends and my sister. But as the victories have been flowing on my heart another turning point have come to my life. I never dreamt of having her in my life. I once prayed for GOD that I hope I can have someone and its been three years since I was single. But, I ask and waited still no one comes. But one day, when I was sharing my victory inside me, it just sprung from nowhere with no hesitation. She came into my life and makes my boring life more blooming as it supposes to be. The laughter and happiness I have was given enlighten. We shared common feelings and felt it at the first time we met. For the longest time I am been wishing for someone to come. Now, my prayers was heard and given her to me. When I am with her the time just stops and everything we do is the best thing in our lives. But, everything we do has to come in a very painful ending. At first it is a fact that I cannot have her because she is owned by another. Even we love each other and really fight for our love still. We need to face that what we are having is not right and should not keep it going. Because even though we are so happy still back in our mind we are hurting others and trying to test “LOVE” in the wrong time and place. So, we tried to fix things and prayed so hard. But still we end up separating even sacrificing the love we feel to each others. That moment it really crashed my heart and soul and it’s like I was bitten by the demon that keep on crawling over us. Now, everything was in unstable. When we see each other, all I can do is smile or the worse is to run away and never look at her. It would be a perfect love for both of us. But, we are just blinded and had no power to follow what we really feel. Still, we just let our mind ruled over us. For the sake of “others”, again, so ironic if you just look at it. Even sacrificing our own happiness and leave us in full of pains. Well, at least we tried and never lost our faith that someday if GOD permits we’ll just bump ourselves and start all over again if time will just suit on us.
So, these are the things that happen to me this year. There would be many things but I just put some of the most important because this would run into more pages and pains will just flows and I will be crash into small pieces. What I wanted to share here is that, even how hard life may be look like. Still, I am here standing and continuing my journey I started and ready to face what future will bring. So, now I am ready to face another year. I don’t know what will happen to me but here am I smiling and carrying my very own trueness in life. Facing the world with a happy face in and out… so, let’s go and be free…

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“…life may be so difficult, but, who says that it’s too easy as well. So, let’s not just be left behind by the past and let the future frighten us. Yet, let us smile together and let this moment be the best…” – gab david

Unfinished

By gab david
December 9, 2006/ no time / hometown, bangon naga



And the day has come to an end
Like the thread of life
And the breath of joy in my heart
That even you cannot stop

Showing every bit of the day that moves
Like the flower that blooms
And the wind that brings music to the leaves
That even you cannot stop

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p.s.

"...its like a stream of water that flows down that even the stars were the only witness and with that i just cried having an empty handed, but, i said to myself, let the smile of my face changes you, for i will be at your side forever..." – gab david

Best thing in life

By gab david
11.35 pm/ December 07, 2006/ hometown, naga city




Having everything in your hand
Was the best thing in life?
But, until when

Sharing what you have
Was the best thing in life?
But, until when

Making someone smile out of the bloom
Was the best thing in life?
But, until when

Even crying together with your closest friend
Was the best thing in life?
But, until when

Smiling every minute of the day
Was the best thing in life?
But, until when

Having a bunch of friends
Was the best thing in life?
But, until when

Having pain after a joyful love
Was the best thing in life?
But, until when

Saying no to a friend or even stranger
Was the best thing in life?
But, until when

Loving is a contagious thing
Was the best thing in life?
But, until when

Telling your sorry
Was the best thing in life?
But, until when

Promising to someone is a gem to be keep
Was the best thing in life?
But, until when

Shinning bright in every raining days
Was the best thing in life?
But, until when


Talking and connecting to someone
Was the best thing in life?
But, until when

Facing your fear
Was the best thing in life?
But, until when

Letting go of someone
Was the best thing in life?
But, until when

Taking a step with full of hope
Was the best thing in life?
But, until when

Saying it’s over now to someone
Was the best thing in life?
But, until when

Crying alone with no one can see you
Was the best thing in life?
But, until when

Someday will meet again
Was the best thing in life?
But, until when

Wishing for someone
Was the best thing in life?
But, until when

Simply saying thank you
Was the best thing in life?
But, until when

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p.s.

“…my absence and silence doesn’t mean I already forgotten you my beloved angel, it is just we need something to fix in our lives, for tomorrow, when we meet and say hello, both of us are so in love to each other…” - gab david

For awhile

By gab david
November 28, 2006 / 11.55 pm / hometown



I know I need some time
At least for awhile
Before this aches perish
And learn how stand in my feet

I know things will come and go
Like the morning that comes with happiness
And ended with night that tries knocking me out
While Confusion is coming so badly

But when was the right time to say, thank you
After a long day work
Or do it every minute of the day
For I will never know what it may bring to them

Saying goodbye
Was just like closing my eyes
And never think of anything
Just only a piece of blank and numbness in my body

The words in my mind are rushing in
Didn’t mean to have it
Nor deserve those precious things
But how come I need to have it

Now, I don’t know where to start
I am alone, again
With nothing in my hand
Just a little hope in my heart

Foolishness has just come again
Together with my tears
With no complains
For I will be ending up all alone, for awhile…

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p.s.

“…everything I do is not for someone but for myself and this will make who I am tomorrow…” – gab david

Untitled 1111

By gab david
No time / November 11, 2006 / ecology park, san felipe, hometown


Today, I sit all alone
With nothing in my hand
And a heart that once filled with love
But today, it was left empty

The counted days and nights
Like the birds and the bees that sings
And even the trees and flowers that dances along
That never asks for any in return

Now I ask myself, why?
Do I deserve these pains?
If loving is a pain
I rather have it and be love for rest of my life

Yet for now, I said to myself, let it be
Because I have nothing in my hand
Just a pinch of hope hanging
And still hoping someday she’ll come back to me

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p.s.

“… when is the right time to say to yourself, enough and stop?...”

The right chance that gave me a choice

By gab david
October 5, 2006 / 9.23 am / hometown, naga city



Morning have just starts to wave
From his rays of life
That touches my whole body of love
With so much happiness in me

I open my eyes with a simple smile
Thinking every bit of joy
Slowly flows through my body
Feeling every bit of sweetness of emotion

The trees were dancing
While the wind was singing
Like the first time I saw you
Walking in the corridor having your bag in you

I never look straight on you
Only, telling myself, that, just another girl
Yet, you leave a picture of you inside me
That I cannot erase nor even forget it

As the day goes by
And the time move as it should be
All I did was contemplating my predicament thoughts
Just to let my day be a busy one

Suddenly you walk by from the other side of the corner
That I cannot hide nor fight to notice you
Your innocent, angelic yet strong face
Slowly telling myself that there is something about her

So the day move as it should be
Birds are singing, as always, with full of love and joy
That even the melodies are giving me the biggest smile
Just like everytine I glimpse of you

So the days have come and go
Leaving exactly the same feeling inside me
And slowly leading me toward something more and more deeper
Not knowing where it will lead me

As I glance your face each morning
And while slowly walking towards me
Smiling and with full of love in your face
All I can say is that, love is now holding on us

From the simple greetings of hi and hello
Through the unending exchange of smile and laughter
And endless stories about ourselves
Like there is no tomorrow left for both of us

The days became weeks
And weeks became a month
The same day we both admit to ourselves
That both of us felt the same, loving each other more and more

Now, when the day have come again
And the sun starts to wave
And really proud to say I am not alone anymore
Because I believe that I have someone beside me now

With that, I thank you
For taking the chance that pass by
Like the first time I lay my eyes on you
For not letting the chance be a squander

So, with no hesitation on me, I will hold on to you
Every bit of piece of you
And I will live it until to my last breathe
With the right choice in my hand and a fulfill chance I got

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p.s.

“…there would be nothing more important than taking another chance to someone, especially, if this will make you more complete… and that is you, my jaemietot…”

As the time moves

By gab david
November 3, 2006 / 8.29 am / my hometown, naga city

Tic tac tic tac
The sound of time
That slowly flowing in my head
And wishing you are here with me

Tic tac tic tac
The sound of time
That crawls upon my ears
And hoping you whisper I just think of you

Tic tac tic tac
The sound of the time
That gives me this contagious love
And make me so complete

Tic tac tic tac
The sound of time
That plays like music inside me
And asking for the melody that lights my life to return

Tic tac tic tac
The sound of time
That flies over the wind from the east
And showing me how fast love left me

Tic tac tic tac
The sound of time
That circling in my mind
And telling me that I didn’t make you mine

Tic tac tic tac
The sound of time
That shares my life forever
And given me the happiest and saddest way

Tic tac tic tac
The sound of time
That shivers my memories
And because of that I cried so hard

Tic tac tic tac
The sound of time
That led me to you
And let the fate decide for both of us
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p.s.

“…time may be so fast, like the wind the blew from the east, still, I will stand and wait not because I want too, but because destiny has shown me the true meaning of true love, and I saw it to you, my jaemietot…”

Near from you

By gab david
October 29, 2006 / 9.26 am / hometown, naga city


From the shadow of the night
I look upon the stars
That lights every bit of flowers and trees
And keep me near from you

As the wind blew
From the west
That slowly touches my body
And keep me near from you

Even the sun that shines
Giving each and every morning a brightness
That helps me to see tomorrow
And keep me near from you

As the days goes by
Time may so be so fast
That never forgets the real feeling
And keep me near from you

So I stand and waited
For the next star that shines
That will bring me closer to you
And keep me near from you

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p.s.

“… even the rain may fall down in the middle of the night or even in the morning, all I see is my true love for you my ever beloved, jaemierose marie martinez crescini…”

I need your love

By gab david
8.53 am / October 19, 2006 / hometown, naga city


I need your love
From the moment I saw you
Walking down the corridor
With your innocent sweet face

I need your love
Every day I open my eyes
Your face and name showers in my heart
And make my day completes

I need your love
Each and every day
Because you made my heart so happy
Which makes me who am I

I need your love
Until the night starts to shine
Like the Cassiopeia
That sacrifices her love for each and everyday

I need your love
Every minute of the day
From the glimpse of your innocent smiles
And unending love you shared

I need your love
At the start of the day
Until it close down in the night
With full of passion in my heart

I need your love
Because I need you
Even how hard it may be
I am willing to wait

I need your love
Because the fate has brought us
With no idea of loving each other
And its destiny showed the way

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p.s.

“… even how hard it may sound nor to live with it. Still, I am willing to wait for you my love. Because I know deep inside it’s the love that binds us and fate have showed the path for us to be destined to one another…”

Departed

By gab david
10.19 pm / October 18, 2006 / home town, naga city



So the night have fallen now
From the bright life of the sun
And the birds chirpings
like the trees who dances in the sound of the wind


trying to hide what I really feel
wanting to act as normal as possible
but still pains are starting to eat me
from all sides of the wall

before my life was as bright as sun above
Sharing every bit of my rays
And letting them feel the warmth
And amidst the sacrifice am I having inside

So I continue to comfort
The sadness inside me
and never ask for anything
just a love from you

but all I wish and ask was never given
all I have are pains
and all the possibilities are gone
even hope have already departed me

so what would be the next for this life
if all I have is a broken heart
and more pains in my life
that I never ask even before

so would this be my last breathe
which the only resort I can see
that even you would not notice it
because you just let me go when I started to love you


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p.s.

“…life may be so difficult to live but having you is much more easy…with your love and presence everything is in place…because of that, I thank you for making my life in the best possible way… thanks jaemierose marie crescini for the time you spent on me…”

Over

By gab david
October 16, 2006 / 12.55 pm / naga city



Now, I am all alone, again
From a lofty feeling yesterday
Like I have the time in my hand
Yet today, all I have is a tear in my eyes

After the joy
Here comes the ache
I know this will come
I just denied it

So I said
Is it over now
And try my luck tomorrow
And find my way

But how can I promise to be happy
From the pains I have
And ending the wish I been asking
And try to tell myself, I am fine

Tell me now
Is this the time I should let you go
And said to myself it’s over now
Let the time move in his way

Someday
Things will be alright
And someone will see my eyes
With so much love and happiness

For now
I’ll just drown myself to sadness
Because this will just comfort me
And will give me a better feeling

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p.s.

“… for someone I used to love, with honesty and truthfulness. When I was with her, time will stop and our love will rule over the time and laughter and passion will be emerging… just because of you my love…”

Would this be the reward?

By gab david
1.05 pm / home, naga city/ October 15, 2006

Would this be the reward?
A full of pains
And a crash of heart
Just for true love

Would this be the reward?
For being true to yourself
Sharing the best you can
And even giving your own life

Would this be the reward?
Letting your life be in a insensitive mode
Letting every bit of your happiness drifted away
And be left out all alone

Would this be the reward?
For saying your true ness in life
Giving everything in your hand
And left nothing just for the other

Would this be the reward?
After everything you shared
The laughter and tears
And even the joy in heart

Would this be the reward?
After the sleepless nights
Passion that ruled over you
And the time that conquers the precious moment

Would this be the reward?
After all the those sweets moments
And even smiles
And even in silence yet hearing the love all over

Would be this the reward?
For me
A simple man wishes for someone
And longing for your warmth love

Would this be the reward?
After this very moment
All i have is the memories
And it will just stay forever

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p.s.

“…after I let go of someone I used to love and shared the true love…it’s all because of you, jaimierose marie crescini… the only girl thought me to love again and let my childlike relive in every minute of the day when I was with you… I won’t forget you and will just wait as what I said...”

You made me smile

By gab david
October 10, 2006 / 7.18 am / home town, naga city

In one afternoon
You made me smile
From one corner of the room
A simple glimpse of your innocent face

In one afternoon
You made me smile
From the other side of the street
Smiling with no hesitation in you

In one afternoon
You made me smile
From the other room
Making my whole day filled with completeness

In one afternoon
You made me smile
From the second floor
Waving your sweetness in me

In one afternoon
You made me smile
From my side
Holding me with full of love in you

An afternoon with you

By gab david
October 2, 2006 / 1.52 pm


As the sun rays in the morning
All I see is your face
The simple glimpse of your shadow
Enveloping every bit of my heart

Just a little bit of love
And the passion really started to flow
The attention that you gave
And even the game we always played

Just a little bit of smile
From you
Is more than that I ask for
All because you really completes me

As you walk from a distance
I try to hide these emotions
The happiness
And even the lofty feelings you always carry

From now on
I will always thank you
Not for the chance
But the choice you do

Time may say
And end may come
But I promise you
Love will always last forever

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p.s.

for the person whom I barely knew but never think twice of loving me not for who am I but for what she feels… with that I thank you my gummy bear :P

Surfing in one afternoon

By gab david
September 22, 2006 / home town naga city / 5.30 pm


It was one afternoon
The sun was high
And it was really hot in the room

As I sit and stare in the monitor
And start to surf the net
All I see is different tag name

So I continue to search
From one site to another
Just to make myself busy

As the time moves on
Like the speed of the sever
From 200 to 256 kb

Then a message pop up in my monitor
From someone I don’t know saying, “hello”
Partly I ignore but really curious enough to answer back

so eager to look
to stop
and even to read

then another message came
from the same person who said “hello”
so I stop and give answer “hello there”

now, I wasn’t aware of the time
the sun are now sleeping
and so as the stars are starting to shine

for that simple “hello” from her
everything changes
everything has to happen for a reason

now I am still here
waiting and talking
sharing our dreams together

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p.s.

“… being with someone doesn’t guarantee happiness. Finding your other half does. It doesn’t matter how long you’ve been alone, how long you’ve hoped, or how long you’ve waited. There’s no such thing as a perfect love story. Heartaches will always be a part of loving. But remember – though not perfect – if that love is meant for you, it will stick with you till the end. No matter how tough it gets, no matter how long. Far from perfect – but real…”
– forwarded tetxt by doc miss

And so was the sun

By gab david
September 22, 2006 / home town naga city/ 5.01 pm

The sun has to say thank you
For this day of happiness
That envelopes me the whole day
And never failed to give me the best day

The sun has to say thank you
For this day of enjoyment
That makes me who I am
And for having someone in my side

The sun has to say thank you
For this day of having a full of love
That showers in my heart and hers
And for making the this day our day of love

The sun has to say thank you
For this day of sharing
That thought me to be humble in every minute of the day
And for having her and teaching me the simplicity of life

The sun has to say thank you
For this day had come to an end
That never stops filling my hopes and wishes
And for sharing to me this girl named leizl in my life


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p.s.

“…until one morning, I’ll wake up and find I’m thinking about something else, and then I’ll know the worst is over, my heart might be bruised, but it will recover and become capable of seeing the beauty of life once more. It has happened before, it will happen again, I’m sure. When someone leaves, it’s because someone is about to arrive…”
– Paulo Coelho the book zahir

100 Ways to feel positive and stay happy

By gab david
September 17, 2006 / home town, naga city 12.37 pm

“…some of these sayings are copied and inspired. What is important is that the author created a new line of saying that will move every soul who read it…”


1. when waking up always smile and say thank you
2. while walking it’s a no! no! to frown even you feel bad
3. always say thank you with a big smile
4. less talk less mistake
5. argue is good but silence is better
6. say hello to every person you met and passes by
7. don’t afraid to say no
8. sometimes actions speaks louder than voice so move with finest and with assurance
9. if you don’t know a thing try to ask for help
10. when you are sad or depress try to think happy thoughts
11. don’t forget to be childish sometimes
12. let your childlike being ruled once in awhile
13. when you feel dancing, go for it!
14. singing is the best way to put out your frustrations
15. cry if you want its good for your eyes
16. never stop smiling it lowers your age
17. eat ice cream when it rains
18. never stop questioning
19. don’t say I’m fed up with this kind of life
20. always embrace your weaknesses
21. explore everything and learn from it
22. expect nothing just expect for the best
23. never tell a lie to yourself
24. self pity is a no! no! no!
25. try to play with the rain and be wet
26. always stand like a rock
27. nurture what you want to grow
28. in every action don’t forget to K.I.S.S. (keep it so simple)
29. never put yourself last
30. always count your blessing
31. strive for progress not for perfection
32. always learn from the past and carry it with a big hand of challenge
33. give time to yourself
34. try to sit down and do nothing just for once
35. don’t close your heart so tight that may leave you nothing and just pain and aches
36. always have a party on your birthday no matter how old you are
37. when you are sad try to plant a tree and get dirty
38. say sorry to yourself whatever you did whether big or small
39. try to get wet when it rains and dance with it
40. don’t forget to call a friend and say hello
41. Make laughter and joy a greater part of your life than anger and grief.
42. Embrace solitude instead of running from it.
43. never think of tomorrow just slow down and feel the preset
44. fears are everywhere try to accept it and enjoy
45. always say a good prayer
46. be positive and dissect the negative
47. when the sun is up try to fly a kite
48. acceptance of your weakness will make you more stronger
49. always put in mind the all feelings are okay
50. try to clean your closet and sell out those things you don’t need
51. always pamper yourself
52. go do some good deeds
53. do a wall climbing every now and then
54. always think of yourself as a survivor not a victim
55. be open to life
56. always acknowledges your imperfections
57. See success as something you already have, not something you must attain
58. when you hit, its always wish for home run but remember you need to step on the first base
59. let the present embrace you
60. try to watch a play and put yourself in their shoes
61. its better to have a great life but first change your attitude
62. power trip is a no! no! no!
63. always think the LOVE is an act of will always use your head and next your heart
64. put in mind that past is gone and future will just come
65. in every actions you do put your 100% on it
66. stop complaining just do what it suppose to do
67. be like an ANT
68. in every action do it step by step and one day at a time
69. never ask for more
70. be contented of what you have
71. success is a journey not a destination
72. never condemn your imperfections
73. put in your mind that everyday is a learning experiences
74. do some reality check in your life
75. before going to bed try to remember all the things you do for today and say thank you
76. talk less and learn more
77. say sorry if you made a mistake even to yourself
78. never leave a unfinished business
79. when you feel like flying go and try to ride a plane
80. do a bungee jump just for once
81. responsibility is what you need in every acts you do
82. never ever downgrade yourself always upgrade it
83. always do some reality before going to sleep
84. smile on the moon
85. always think that there is someone thinking of you so don’t feel your all alone
86. always respects other decision
87. always keep your windows and doors open for someone
88. feel the water in your hand refreshing is there
89. try to wake up early and embrace the sunrise
90. don’t think sunset is an end but a beginning
91. say this to your love one, I love you and miss you thank you for being at my side always
92. when you fall stand up immediately and never stay long on the ground
93. take a half step in every action rather a full step then leaving important things behind
94. when saying thank you put an emotion in it
95. if you want to see the world try to surf the net
96. always share what you is too much for you
97. when loving a person try to love yourself more
98. start a journal and compile it until you reach 60
99. never say sorry if you don’t mean it
100. try to drink a coffee and feel the aroma on it because it will make you smile

A portrait of my own

By gab david
September 14, 2006 / home town


“…hug them. Kiss them. And tell them. That you love them. Don’t miss the chances that life is giving to you to spend with people you love. There are no rewinds…” – adam sandler from the move “CLICK”


Another day have just past
And my life was just fine
Seeing every moves and acts
From the shadow of the sun

I count every bit of words
Searching every bit of my better ness
And repeating every bit of it
Finding out that every bit is just part of the whole

I glance to the angry moon
Seeing the shadow that envelops my life
How painful it may sound
Still I obey and never complain

A sudden destruction came
From my back
So much of fear I ran out
The same thing I do everytime failure comes

Yes, I know
And never deny
My attention may not too noticeable
Still, I choice and force myself to be silent

Now, I face the present
For it dictates my future
And mostly depicts my past
Yet, I myself cannot deny my own existence

So, for now
I rest my case
As what everybody shouts
For this will make me feel that I am not alone

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p.s.

it’s almost five in the morning and i'm still awake :P

Just for you gab

By gab david
September 12, 2006/home town naga city


Just one afternoon
From a far distant place
I lay my hand
And I wish
I will have you

Just one afternoon
From a far distant place
I search for hours
And I hope
I will have a glimpse of you

Just one afternoon
From a far distant place
I sit on the tree
And I ask
I will get your attention

Just one afternoon
From a far distant place
I wander in the fields
And I pray
I will get your time

Just one afternoon
From a far distant place
I start to count
And I know
I will see you

Just one afternoon
From a far distant place
I suddenly stop
And I beg
I will still have more breath to live

Just one afternoon
From a far distant place
I did not move
And I fail
I will just let you go forever

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p.s.

for doc you know who you are. i hope you are doing fine...

...from the three maria's of my life

untitled
marjorie mae o. trinidad

its very real and true and sad
and hopeful just like me
its one of those things i'll never tell
i'll carve it in a tree
i need a plan for you to fall
inlove with me
i never wear mask when
i know that you can see me
you act as if i'm not around
but deep down you muxt need me
i draw you, every single
feature in my head
i try to do my homework
but i dream of you instead


just yeasterday
mariniel t. plazo

a range of different emotions i feel
the dayhe walked out of my life
sadness, anger, hatred-add then all up
sums up to all what i feel inside
now i'm sitting here, alone, wondering why...
thinking love's function, its use in my life
thinking often of him makes no difference
for a changed, he's gone, i've lost him already afterall
yet ain't gonna show weakness in me
i'm gonna smile and tell the world i'm fine...
i'm gonna kep my senses but deep down,
where no one can hear me...
i;ll be craying for HIM!...
so GOD, rest assure my angels
to catch my tears
walk me out of here, i'm in pain
'coz he left me, he's gone...just yeaterday...


skyflakes
gretchen gay tenorio

everytime i talk to you
it feels like you don't want me around
it feels like you're pushing me away
its like you're so eager not to
start a conversation,
i'm fine, and i'm lying
the things i've planned to tell you
are deserting me,
it leaves me empty...
i've been running dry for so long
a gesture of a trite expression
is all i get from you now
so not used to feel this way
i'm scared of telling you
i'm scared that what i feel
is not what you feel
and you'll see me differently
but this feeling are not fading away, and that's
what you cannot see

buhay, ano ba talaga?

sa composisyon ni ginoong gab david
ika-20 ng hulyo 2006
sa oras na labing isa’t at dalawang minuto


Kalian ba talaga puwedeng masabi na okay ka
Yun ang feeling mo na walang kahit ano nasa isip mo
Ang alam mo lang eh maging masaya
Magaan ang pakiramdam
Yun tipong kahit ano pang pumasok na kamalasan wala lang saiyo
Dahil alam mo hindi saiyo makakaapekto
Kahit siguro bumuhos man ng malakas na ulan
Wala lang saiyo
Kasi mas gugustuhin mo pang mabasa kasi mas magaan lalo sa pakiramdam
Kalian ba talaga yun tamang panahon
Para sabihin
Wala na akong iniisip na kahirapan
O kaya magkaroon ng mabigat na karamdaman
Napakahirap mag ambisyon ng maging magaan ang puso
Kung lahat na lang sa kapaligiran mo ay problema
Mas madalas nga eh wala ka pa magalawan
Kahit saan ka tumingin e
Mabigat sa iyong mga mata
Dahil sa di kaya-ayang kapaligiran
Napakasakit aminin pero ano ba talaga
Ano ba talaga ang tunay na buhay
Ano ba ang kailangan para maging masaya
Oh alisin man lang itong mga tinik na nasa damdamin
Na nagsimula pa noon
Ngunit hanggan ngayon andito pa rin
Nananalaytay sa bayat dugo ng aking katawan
At unti unti lamang kinikitil ang akin hininga
Ngunit ano ba ang panalo sa labanan na ito
Kung ikaw ay tinuturing isang hapas lupa lamang
Na waiang karapatan
O kaya magreklamo sa mga binibigay ng malupit at mapang-aping mundo
O mahabagin na tadhana
ano ba talaga ang nais mo sa aking nag iisang buhay
bakit sa bawat patak ng oras
kay bigat ng akin dinadala
tila ba nasa akin ang lahat na kahirapan at pagkakamali
kay sakit isipin at yakapin
ang bigat ng tadhana na akin pasan pasan
ngunit ngayon eto ako
nabubuhay at nag iisa
naghihintay ng tamang oras
at nagbabasakaling mapagbigyan kahit isang saglit
isang magaan na puso
at luwalhati na kaisipan
sa kadahilanaan na akin napagtanto kasi wala naman mawawala
kung ako ay maghintay at maging masayasa sa bandang huli
kaya eto pa rin ako nagbabasakali ng aking iisang buhay
at bigyan ng pag-asa ang nag iisang buhay

Shadow

4.31 p.m. / office of the chancellor

june 1, 2006

by gab david

An afternoon delight had begun

And the shining sun clears the day

Yet the heat was so timid

Like the morning dew in the west

I crawl upon the shadow

From far beyond the night

With a strange feeling inside me

That lingers in my mind for many years

So glad to have the clarity in life

Seeing the brightest solution every time I walk

Even tears are everywhere

Still happiness has just envelope me

This is my life

For the past weeks

I forbid

But who am I to question

A powerless man

Who wanted to rule thy own self?

With maximum eagerness

Yet it was destiny who dictates

Now, the day has come to its end

And ready to face another time

Still with hope in hands

Ready to face the uncertain tomorrow

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Desolation of a life less notion

April 30, 2006
5.55 pm
By gab david


“…Good intentions but bad decision”

The sun just settles down
From the eager ness rays
That begins in the morning
And settles until the days need to showers the calmness

Winds are just happening and coming
Never let fades or go
And with no beginning nor end
Yet the entire smooth ness of thee just known from the west

From the cradles ness of one’s imagination
Leads to the uncertainty of oneself
Acting for nobody
Yet thinking of someone not for thyself

Time may pass
The decision may be good
Even from the start
Until to the next morning

A shadow ness of aches just flowed
Covering the true ness of thyself
Even diverting thyself for the truthful ness
Still it pours down and it really hurts

The journey needs to continue
And face the reality of life
Act as if it will fade away
Yet one’s truth ness is already stained in thy heart

But who can foretell
The reason of tomorrow
Or even the next ache
Uplifting thyself to the continuous burning heart

Days may come
As the sun set everyday
Like the dawn that showers thy sweetness dews
From then, it can refresh you from true ache ness

Life is so indispensable
It can build one’s tomorrow
Yet if mishandled
It can just fade thy life

Now, be not afraid
For the dusk will just be a start
And let the dawn be shared forever
With truthfulness and simplicity in thy heart that will cover thee life

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talking to you...

12.18 am
Gab david
05/19/06


There are times that the need for longing ness is needed for me to overcome the unstructured life that just keep on knocking on my heart.
So, that the hatred that been lurking inside as well as tears that on flowing on my eyes will be forever be forgotten.
I know it’s been awhile since I lost the sense of belong ness and be love by someone else.
A complete stranger that accepted you despite the differences that runs into your mind and feelings.
The way of life that never and could not be put in one path of life.
Living in a very mundane way and be partner to a very on the go personality.
That was the life then.
It’s like a challenge in life like what the sailor said every time they drift apart into the roaring ocean.
Yet, everything goes smoothly.
Thanks to the good climate like my understanding and true acceptance with no conviction inside. At first, the up’s and down are just keep on coming and flowing over.
Like the waters that keep on splashing over the den of the ship that even washing it out still it just will come and pour at any point of time.
So, that was the real life I have until the big moment have just come and change the true course of my life.
I thought that my life is now over and there is no more tomorrow for me.
A future that is really for me, alone.
Or even a day that full of excitement.
That even time is just a mere accessory for awhile because what is important is that the ever moment feeling that just shower over me.
But, when will that be?
How come it’s so easy for everyone to say or even dreamt of something that will make our lives be on the top and be love?
But, what the reality gives is the other way around.
Sometimes, the revolution inside are eager to explode due to the unfairness that the reality shows.
Either you neither make your own move or waited for the next move nor didn’t mind what tomorrow will share.
This is what I am feeling at this moment.
I don’t want to count on the days nor even eagerly rushing the day because I might meet the “ever” and “the one” for me.
Yet, when the days come and near to an end I still have an empty handed.
After a week of no idea of what the current news due to my busy schedules, like reports, papers, and quizzes, that preoccupied my entire life which before it was just merely a free hassle day. Anyhow, I was saying that, the other day when I had a minute to peep on the newspaper and hurriedly check on the entertainment section and the horoscope part.
I immediately scan.
To my surprised, is said that, something like this but not exactly sort of the essence of it, “…don’t look for someone to be love and even pursue of something that is too far to reach for the one you are looking for is just at your side waiting for you to look and grab…” I was suddenly moved yet puzzled.
At the same time, I reacted so normal yet, I was moved by it.
The smile on my face was just unexplainable.
From then on I just go back to the reality of my mundane day.
Yet, on the back of my mind I was really asking who and where is that person that the horoscope is referring.
I been reading horoscope for so long but it is that day when I encountered a very interesting yet move bothering one.
Actually I just fed up the real news I read and saw in the newspaper that why I end up reading the entertainment and lifestyle portions of the newspaper.
For me to have a very easy way of life and never felt the aches that news brings.
Absorbing the funny and easy life moving story that I read really fueled my daily jovial life.
I hate to admit but its true that I just waned to escape to the reality that enveloping my daily life and even tried to run off to my nightmares in the past.
But, still I end up having them once in awhile.
And even sometimes I have them in my mind every minute for the day. And when day came I just smile even my heart are just starting to cry so hard like a child that was left in one dark corner.
Shouting yet cannot be heard because it was just inside.
Only those knew me so much will notice it.
But, the question is that, who can really read it?
So, those things are just what my life goes.
Its not what you think.
A colorful one that even rainbow is present even in rainy days or even hot summer. So, everything is just merely a wishful thinking.
Nothing more, nothing less.
A merely simple ordinary way of life.
A very private yet, open to everything that may come in life.
Totally dependable in what life can give especially what the present will share to me.

Drooping from the comfort zone

10.27 pm
April 28, 2006
By gab david


Around me is just a simple joy
From the corner of happiness
Letting me feel the true side of sweetness
Reaching every bit of enjoyment in life

From the early morning
Until the dawn knock from the back
With nothing in mind
Just merely excitement in life

Total expectation was never the main goal
And even reaching the far end ladder of completeness
From the powers of animosity of generation
Until it neglects the true commitment in life

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Version 1

10.27 pm
April 28, 2006
By gab david


Why things should be in such places?
When sometimes it’s not what supposes to happen
But with such powerless in the hand
Still what you need is to follow

Why is that, the need to be together is in need?
When the reason are not as heavy as what you see
With some learning it will be easily fix
Still what you get was being alone and crying

Why does time be the measurement of happiness?
When it can just be used every second of the day
All you need is a true feeling
Still what you get was pain in the long run

Why am I asking this?
When all of it is just part of life
But having with the best ingredient in life is by being simple
Still what is the problem of living with it?

____________________________________________________

A consistent thought of life

10.27 pm
April 28, 2006
By gab david


From the heat of the sun
That slowly invades my untouched body
Accepting everything until it reaches through my soul
With no hesitation from it

Wanted to run
And just feel the best comfort ness in life
Yet, still I choose not to be
Instead let the raging sun envelop my whole body and soul

It’s like the tears in my heart
That started to fall down and keep on pouring through
And showering my melancholy face
For it will just fades the sudden emptiness I have

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...day one

By gab david
At my moms’ room / listening to my bro collection
April 6, 2006 / 9.15 pm

Now, the day have just past
I cannot figure this certain feeling I have
I’ve been carrying it since this morning
It started when I wake up this morning
When I still on the bus
On my way to my very own, home town
It was around six in the morning
The sun has just smiling through the dancing fields of palays
And even the breeze of fresh palays is everywhere
Spreading the whole place
But, total silences inside me just knock
i don’t understand and explained
Why I just feel the sudden coldness
Intriguing yet unnecessary one
I’ve been counting this
Even before I left the busy place I used for almost five years
But not really expecting it that it will shot me right away
And would end up like this
It is like i am being pulled back
To the place where I just left
A sleep for about nine hours
Then will lead me to this longing ness feeling
It’s like I was in the other archipelago
With nowhere to run back
It’s like I am an alien in my own town
I am not a perfect man
Nor hypocrite to what I feel at the same time
Not, sort of, used of staying for a long time in my so-called home town
yet, and said to myself “…this will past”
So, as the sun is happily shining over
And Unselfishly sharing the true joy of the day ahead
However, honestly speaking I accept it with no conviction
And just continue my usual stuff
As the time passes by
Like the wind that touches my face
when I first went out from the bus
my mind was blank
with nothing inside nor feeling flowing
wanting to rush back
frozen some seconds
and wanting to stay from the right disposition
but I said to myself that I guess this should suppose to happen
then, time continue to move
walking and wondering the old road
passing the my busy old crowded place I was born
while reaching our house
a little smile have just visited
saying “ it never change”
flashing the memories that was imbedded in my deepest heart
yet, the raging sadness had never left me
it was sitting there waiting for the right moment
even how hard I divulge myself to do things
still it lead me into a concrete coma
and power of sadness overruled my day
I talk to some people whom I used to be with
Saying things that would lead me to a smile
Yet, it just keeps on crashing my heart
I guess this is what a true feeling in
first day, My day one, living in my old time (busy) life
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“….When I open my eyes…in a new set of day, all I think of, is you, with out any hesitation in my mind. So, let me feel it, until the morning dew will set again.” – gab david

...The traveler from the past

By gab david

March 17, 2006

11.14 a.m. / Office of the chancellor while listening the album of Hale

A travel from the past

Was never a hindrance for me

Reaching every bit of pieces

That falls down over me

I suddenly felt the unexplained rush in of blood in my body

While Searching every corner of the wall

From Whom I went through

Trying to dissects each sides I passes through

I ponder those unquestioned experience I have

Showering from my face

While covering it with tears

And my lungs start to shut off from the air I need

Like the sea that needs some sand to be complete

Or the favorite old shoes I always wear

Despite of the rubbish look yet the important is the comfort ness of it

Yet, aches are still clicking

While, Sailing my wondrous notion

From the clear and luminous feeling

Through my deepest desire in life

Trying to Enlighten the very essence of my dark side

I may bump on some memoirs

Who used to be found in a lofty place in my life?

Even the blue sky then are shimmering

While the tears are just dancing with full of happiness

However, Wondrous sadness have been visiting me

And even Wanting my last breath

While it crashes my heart into pieces

Yet, consoles are just uncontrollable and just pouring over me

Silence has just came

While Closing my eyes and said

LORD I pray to you for I need enlightenment

And Pushing my self to HIM begging for forgiveness

From then on,

Every bit of neither tears nor smiles in me

Was the greatest attest from HIM

Like neither the sweet November nor the rainy day in June

Going back was never easy

For it will open the four corners of my life

Seeing the most happiest nor saddest part of it

But, having these affections from others are my greatest weapon

Needing every bit of console

From all people whom I bump on

With my open fist while emotions are dripping

Holding back from it was really a challenge in my life

Tonight I told myself; Let the time decide for my future

because the past was a learning and a challenge

And just live my life into present

For it will taught me to see tomorrow

Now, I said, Let the morning shower with joy

And let the breeze does their part by shimmering the place

For I was given a life to live

And enjoy it to the fullest

Completeness…of what?

By gab david

March 9, 2006 / office – while listening to ultraelectromagneticjam

12.52 in the afternoon

is there any certainty in life?

That was a question keep on circling over my nostalgic head

and continuously pushing and pushing over keeping me out from the reality

like a colossal raindrops that suddenly burst into my face

now I wonder

trying to comprehend the things that comes in my life

and making up some finality on it

pushing myself to the limit

yet, every move I partake from that struggle ness

it seem that anonymity of it transcends from nowhere

carrying every bit of it through my veins

and even pains are beginning to swallow my entire completeness

after a long waited hours

the wondrous exploration of contemplation

which had possessed the entire life time

here am I left alone with nothing in hand with a question of completeness in me

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“…having you is so much gift from HIM. I never felt any regrets since we became friends. With that I thank you for not just being there but being part of my life…” – gab david

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…and a reply from them

“ …I thank HIM everyday for giving me the chance of meeting you and entrusting me with your friendship…” – mitch morning seven

“…you too, gabJ *big hug* - jeng aka tantric

“…aay, touched ako..your welcome my friend J I thank you as well for being part of my life...night night…” – lem aka lemonada

a facade of notion?

By gab david
February 25, 2006 / watching “love actually” in star movies
7.56 in the evening

Create your own world?

This was the question what we all wanted to answer even from the start. Its may sound so lame and partly a cliché. Like a nostalgic view that cannot be erase. Actually, I was watching Animax. Not my usual channel (everytime I open the television on my sister pad). But I was caught by an anime series that tackles her dream about white cats and in relation with the snow and her everyday life.

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This was the thing in my head. I am all alone and all I have is the laptop and a television with me now. Meaning, “home alone” (staying in my sister’s pad here in Makati) and stuck with my favorite junk foods (nova cheese flavor, nagaraya garlic, and ice tea). I woke up early today. I set my alarm last night at 6 am. Unfortunately, I woke up a little bit ahead from what it should suppose to be --- the way I set it (somewhat 30 minutes ahead of it). Getting ready for my game that was set by my friend (ask me to join them play badminton).

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Thoughts are all over me. I wanted to write but its seems that there are no words that comes out to my head. Thoughts are keep on passing by like the music in my laptop. It just passes by. Sometimes I can figure the lyrics but most of the times I just listen to it. And try to imagine some happy thoughts.

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these are all start… and it will kill me because I can’t finish it!

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…I think I just leave this,
“ …it’s so nice to wake up in the morning and feeling the sweet fragrance of love that cuddles your body… with that you’ll be having a great day ahead. Thanks for the simple smile in the face, now, I can die with no regrets in life…” - gab david

…strange feeling

by gab david
10.50 am / condo, makati
while watching MTV




A cried of wolf
Just visited my soul
I wanted to run fast
And hide to the deepest sea

Catching every bit of my breath
Slowly Feeling the non stop trembling of my body
And even the Adrenaline is now all over me
Crushing every bit of my veins

I already felt this indescribable thing
A decade ago
When the wind from the sea lingers on my ears
And tears are falling all over my face

Yet a strange hand just touch my back
From nowhere
A heartfelt feeling have cross over me
Shining a light to my life through my deepest soul

Now, this strange thing comes again
With Full of hopes inside me
Yet fears are rushing in at the same time
This mystery feeling that can despise anyone

The fear of rejection
The fear of being hurt
The fear of loving
The fear of being left out

The magical word called LOVE
That most of the time we are blinded by it
Seeing nothing
And just hearing the sound of emancipation

So, I cried for help
Catching every bit of knowledge
Searching for the truth
And hoping for an honest answer that lies beneath


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“…this is for you, for every bit of smile you gave and shared. Now, it will be another treasures that being buried in my soul. With that, I thank you for your sincere and enigmatic response while I am with you.” – gab david

…the other side of magic

by gab david

February 8, 2006 / office listening Barbie (the singles album)

a joy have just cascade

from the chair where I am sitting

with no emancipations

and even anticipation in my soul

the ambiance

the place

so calmly

yet a nostalgic feeling suddenly rush in

then the light begin to fades

from the place where I sat

believing that it will return back

from the time it just disappeared

and now time have been moving

from hour

to a minute

then second

yet no one came

the shining day have just end

practically covering every illuminating thing

fading from inch by inch

until I lose my ever eyesight

now, the joy turned to nothing

for it just spoiled every bit of it

the greatest disguise of life have overruled

and left a tear in my eyes

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"meeting you was the best thing happen in my life. having you in my life is more than i ask for. now being with you is a life that i wanted." -gab david