anguish ness of the past

By gab david
September 27, 2005 /11. 28 pm


As the night passes by
The stars started to show
From the shadow ness of aches
Beneath the hurtful anguished moment
That keeps on crawling from the night

But that sudden pains
Are just merely layers of thin ness?
That can be easily be sweep away
By simple touch

Crashing hands are all over
From time to time
This cannot be ignore
Or even be mistaken
For this will tell the tale of the past

From far beyond
Those inconsistencies
That lurked from beneath
Will never ever climb
The lofty place of compassionate

For tomorrow will be another tale
And a beginning of an end
From that it memoirs
Will be forgotten
And yet, forever will be in the heart of a lifeless man

as i depart

By gab david
September 3, 2005
11.20 p.m. / main library


Yes, I always say sorry
Yes, I always follow you
Yes, I obey you
Yes, I always wish,
That tomorrow will be longer
Yes, I tell you this,
Thank you
Yes, I promise
Yes, I get mad
Yes, I am insensitive
Yes, I shout
Yes, I cry
Yes, I hope you are with me
Yes, I said to you,
Always smiles
Yes, I never complain
Yes, I will be there even I am in pain
Yes, I am here,
When you need help
But, for now,
Let me say this,
No, for the first time,
Because I am already gone and its forever

a moment

by gab david
septmeber 27, 2005 / 1.25 pm


today i write the saddest line
from nowhere in sight
and ask for someone
and yet no one is there

i wanted to sleep
and let my thoughts be filed with emptiness
for i will achieve the absolute silence
that kept on begging me
every since i was born
until this very last moment of time

because of this noisy confusion
that once crawled over my life
and never let go of me
with that it stopped me from being silent

sometimes i want the time to stop
for it, rejoice will just shower upon me
but time is so uncompassionate
even how deeply i beg
still there is no respond

from time to time
still asking and wishing
that one day
my wish will be granted

so now, i just continue my life
for i will just keep on hoping
that someday
the saddest feeling in my life
will just pause
and say goodbye
if that time happen
my life will live again
the simplest way it should be
and aches will just a mere past
and just be part of my life
forever

sophia...

dear sophia naomi,

you may not know me very well or you don't really know me at all, as what you mom and dad knew me, actually i'm one of the many godfather you have, which I insisted to be your godfather with command to your mother.i don't know when will you be reading this simple message that i made just for you. but, what I am hoping id that, when the right time comes, you'll know me through this simple message i made for you. if ever, i drop by or even accidentally visited your house someday you'll recognize me already. anyhow, I guess now, you are reading this - the "day", so pardon me to my simple message. now, let me start this simple utterance that i dedicate just for you.

the first time i saw you
you were only a week old
so small and fragile
you were so innocent looking
like an angel from heaven
you bore the joy and love for your parents
if you could have only seen them
the momment that they gazed at you
how your mother cried
because of the happiness inside her
how blissful they were
having you in their lives
it was all a wish come true
how marvelous it was
there were no words to explain
even the expression on their faces
or what they felt
because of your fragility
was never a hindrance for them
to smile
fill the joy
and even the presence of love was there
all of it
because of you,
Sophia Naomi

your godfather,
gab david

another rainy day for gabby...

6.45 in the evening

By gab david

I woke up early

At around 7.35

And was happy

because I didn’t have insomnia

its like a pile of joy

because I sleep straight with no cut-offs

the reason I am saying this because

For the past few weeks

I kept on having this type of Routine

That,

I always woke up around 3 in the morning

Then sleep back around 5 in the morning

Even I sleep late around 12 or 1

It really starts to kill me

The cause

I don’t know why

But the cost to me is really big

Even though I do some regiments

Like count numbers

From one to billion (no just joking)

But I do count (to divert my mind)

Sometimes I do read novel (poem compilations)

To let my head and eyes feel the power of sleep

Then, Sometimes I sit on my study table

Then I write

Anything that runs in my head

And those things that really knocking and bothers

But mostly

I just stare on the ceiling

With no lights

Then kept on changing position in my bed

Just like looking for the best spot

To let my body rest

But still I end up

Awake

and still my eyes are wide open

So, that’s my routine every night (for more two weeks now)

Anyhow, today

I woke up early

and it was raining

well, Just little bit shower (little tiny but continuous)

so, I rush and take a shower

and off I go to Makati (condo)

To visit my sister and deliver their laundry

(they ask me to take the laundry – reason “much cheaper”)

So, that’s my day, still raining

and I just stayed in the condo

with my sister

The whole rainy day…

As I ask for you

By gab david
August 31, 2005
11.07 p.m. / main library



At peace,
A joy just filled
From the shadow of a lively butterfly
Through the fragrance tree
I have search,
So delighted
Having the love so dearly
With out any effort
I touch it
Never wonder what it will make me
Just run and keep on going
Like the ants on the wall crawling and working hard
Harder and harder
The feeling of subtleness was inside me
Saying I am satisfied
With it I can sing
A song from the melody of happiness
Shared with flocks of true soul
A life of evergreen
That can even be, only, seen
In a sandy summer of APRIL
And the cold, as cold from the last day of NOVEMBER
From it I shutter the next breath
With it, I have ruled and even captured my inner self
Through it I seek for you
With it, I shall ask for you, and never stop
For this is my last chance to be with you
Oh my love,
Shall you permit me to say that?
For it, I shall live a thousand lives
Until to my last breath
With it, satisfaction have just visited me
For you are my cured
From the long aches I carried out
For years, and years, and years
So let me allow,
And believe, for I will never ask for more
Just your sweet scent of love

...why do i feel this?

by gab gab david
September 19, 2005

for the past two weeks now
I’ve been feeling this
unexplained reaction
I keep on figuring it
thinking so deep and hard
unluckily I cannot figure it out
and I cannot find the reason why

this sort of loneliness
that kept on knocking on my head
when I am working
or sometimes when I am with my friends
and even with my siblings

however, I wonder
and ask myself
because there are times
that this loneliness
is just mere virus
which is somewhat by season
honestly, I am not totally down and hurt
I guess you are now confuse
because even I myself
is confused and keep on asking
what is this feeling
this unexplainable something
that keep on flowing through my head
and keep on affecting my ordinary and simple life
but, I hope this is just a temporary thing
because I cannot stand it anymore
so, what I need to do
I better smile
and live my life to the fullest

one afternoon

By gab david
September 3, 2005
10.53 p.m. / main library


As I sit, I look around
The night are starting to loose its power
Shadowing the place will be ending
Reign of dew shall shower
From the aches of the eyes
As I wonder with full of shivers
Now, it just start,
To stop
A sudden aches, need to overrule
From the strong breath of lungs
And shivering feelings
I just waited, and waited and keep on waiting
For I will be the first to embrace
The next morning
That just has
Its power that keep my heart in freeze
I face
And get ready
For tomorrow is,
Another struggle ness
But be not afraid
For I be at your side
And I will continue
To be at your side
With nothing in mind
Just a simple and sweet smile
For me it’s more than
Of the feeling I wanted
All of it,
Was be completed
If ever I have, just,
Have you
With no shame and fear
Only pure emotion
Keep flowing like the river
And rains that pours down
In one afternoon,
On the coffee table
Where I was sitting

…rain rain go away little gabby wants to play

by gab david
3.42 in the afternoon
office of the chancellor


when I woke up this morning,
it was cold
because it was really raining
the storm had just invaded Diliman
and guess what!
the name of the storm is “parting” – which the same name of my office mate that is very jolly and makulit (no offense sister pat)
unfortunately I woke up late
meaning it was almost eight o’clock
so, I move fast
and rush
but, I reach the office at around nine in the morning
yes, I know, I am late again
for the past few days of this week
I always woke up late
even though I set my alarm at six thirty in the morning
anyhow, so, I just work
and guess what again
my immediate boss was not around
all she left was the files I need to fix
and to be interfile (that’s my job archiving and filling documents)
but, at around eleven quarter
I text the sister of my friend
who happen is here in Diliman campus
attending a IT conference
actually I already informed her ‘bout the dinner today
suddenly, I change my mind and change it to lunch
so, I text her informing her our lunch date
so, at around quarter to twelve
I was already in the UP theater where the event is held
I waited for five to ten minutes
then, finally she already went out
so, immediately went to chocolate kiss – a somewhat fancy resto that is located in bahay ng alumni in the campus which the food is affordable some kind of !?!
so, we take a sit and order
I suggest to try the taco salad – my favorite
then, ask her what she wants
we end up chicken a la kiev for her
and beef stroganoff for me
then two bottomless ice tea
I think she loves the taco salad as well the food
well, I forgot to ask about the place – ask her to rate from 1 as lowest and 5 the highest
anyhow, after the lunch
I ask her if she wants to go around the campus
and she said okay
we ride in ikot jeep and I automatically become a tour guide of the campus
yup! until we end up walking at the palma hall
then, main library and to shopping center
so if you are a UP student you can relate
the route I made for her
in spite of the heavy rains pouring while walking and around the campus
so, at around quarter to two
I drop her off to the UP theater
and off I go to my office
and continue my work
until I end up
writing this one
so, have a nice rainy day
…rain rain go away,
little gabby wants to play!
oh, by the way,
tomorrow I’ll watch the UAAP cheering competition at araneta coliseum
cannot wait to shout and cheer
“ GO MAROONS! GO MAROONS! FIGHT! FIGHT! FIGHT! “

...i feel uneasy!

...at exactly 1.30 in the afternoon
i'll be having my interview as executive assistant
in KPMG Laya Mananghaya Inc.
i don't know what to do,
its been a while since my last interview in a corporate world
i was used to be in public information and in goverment offices
butnow i'll be facing again the corporate world
which really eats the entire system of the world
(correct me if i'm wrong - i may sound pessimistic)
to be honest i don't know what the history of the company
i was just ask to go there by my officemate
a favor, but, i don't know what to do
basta i'll just be myself
so lets fight! fight! fight! "AJA! AJA! AJA!

something...

Your Japanese Name Is...

Haru Kato

What's" your Japanese Name?

From your naive face

By gab david
August 31, 2005
11.19 p.m. / main library



Books are all over,
From my right, neither left, and even in front nor back
Silence has just eaten by room
(Or it is the other way around)
Stories from one side
To another
Deeper from shallow
As I wonder
And as I write
Allow me,
Oh please allow me,
To write, and say this
I thank you,
For your naïve face
That gave me inspiration
How strong it is
That I am suddenly move by it
As I look at you
And have glimpse of your face
How happiness I could feel
And even the stroke of your hair
That falls while you move
From one place to another
You where there
I rush in,
As fast as I could
And if your shadow is not on sight
So typical of me
A useless creator
So contented
In a glimpse of your naïve face
Just look at you
Even I am far, too far
For I am satisfied
And joys have just again flow inside me
Again, a typical of me
As I always says to myself
But, with it I am satisfied
Smelling your sweet fragrance,
Old books that as fresh
As what sudden lines was composed
From it, I am now happy
‘Til I visit again,
To this old library
And have the glimpse of your naive face
Oh joy in heart,
I cannot wait
When it will,
Again

arrrrrr.....

arrrrkkkkkkk...........

...how come

by gab david
august 2005


how come life are so strict,
that even happiness need to be in the right time and place,

how come if you smile now,
people think differently it seem that you don’t have the right to feel funny?

how come we tend to please people,
even though in the expense of our own self respect?

how come we should to be what others told us
which even though deep inside its more than that we can achieve?

as i obey

By gab david
September 3, 2005
11.07 p.m. / main library


You allow me
Open your arms
You allow me
To smile and be sweet
You allow me
To feel lonely, when I am not with you
You allow me
When I feel crying, when time eats my emotions
You allow me
If I ask lets be together
You allow me
At the first our fingers touch together
You allow me
Laying my head on your shoulders to feel comfort ness
You allow me
To be who am I
You allow me
To love you for what I want
You allow me
To get mad when you didn’t agree
You allow me
To feel lonely when colds are in my heart
You allow me
To ease the pain
You allow me
To go after you, even with no certainty
You allow me,
Facing tomorrow with no fear
You allow me
To share the sunlight in the morning
You allow me
To ease the soul that is crying
You allow me
And keep on allowing me,
For, you never say anything,
So, I am following and keep on following

just smile...

by: gab david
july 28, 2005

i have nothing to be proud of,
i have nothing to show of,
i have nothing to prove niether, nor,
i have nothing to give,
all i have is my simple smile...