a facade of notion?

By gab david
February 25, 2006 / watching “love actually” in star movies
7.56 in the evening

Create your own world?

This was the question what we all wanted to answer even from the start. Its may sound so lame and partly a cliché. Like a nostalgic view that cannot be erase. Actually, I was watching Animax. Not my usual channel (everytime I open the television on my sister pad). But I was caught by an anime series that tackles her dream about white cats and in relation with the snow and her everyday life.

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This was the thing in my head. I am all alone and all I have is the laptop and a television with me now. Meaning, “home alone” (staying in my sister’s pad here in Makati) and stuck with my favorite junk foods (nova cheese flavor, nagaraya garlic, and ice tea). I woke up early today. I set my alarm last night at 6 am. Unfortunately, I woke up a little bit ahead from what it should suppose to be --- the way I set it (somewhat 30 minutes ahead of it). Getting ready for my game that was set by my friend (ask me to join them play badminton).

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Thoughts are all over me. I wanted to write but its seems that there are no words that comes out to my head. Thoughts are keep on passing by like the music in my laptop. It just passes by. Sometimes I can figure the lyrics but most of the times I just listen to it. And try to imagine some happy thoughts.

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these are all start… and it will kill me because I can’t finish it!

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…I think I just leave this,
“ …it’s so nice to wake up in the morning and feeling the sweet fragrance of love that cuddles your body… with that you’ll be having a great day ahead. Thanks for the simple smile in the face, now, I can die with no regrets in life…” - gab david

…strange feeling

by gab david
10.50 am / condo, makati
while watching MTV




A cried of wolf
Just visited my soul
I wanted to run fast
And hide to the deepest sea

Catching every bit of my breath
Slowly Feeling the non stop trembling of my body
And even the Adrenaline is now all over me
Crushing every bit of my veins

I already felt this indescribable thing
A decade ago
When the wind from the sea lingers on my ears
And tears are falling all over my face

Yet a strange hand just touch my back
From nowhere
A heartfelt feeling have cross over me
Shining a light to my life through my deepest soul

Now, this strange thing comes again
With Full of hopes inside me
Yet fears are rushing in at the same time
This mystery feeling that can despise anyone

The fear of rejection
The fear of being hurt
The fear of loving
The fear of being left out

The magical word called LOVE
That most of the time we are blinded by it
Seeing nothing
And just hearing the sound of emancipation

So, I cried for help
Catching every bit of knowledge
Searching for the truth
And hoping for an honest answer that lies beneath


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“…this is for you, for every bit of smile you gave and shared. Now, it will be another treasures that being buried in my soul. With that, I thank you for your sincere and enigmatic response while I am with you.” – gab david

…the other side of magic

by gab david

February 8, 2006 / office listening Barbie (the singles album)

a joy have just cascade

from the chair where I am sitting

with no emancipations

and even anticipation in my soul

the ambiance

the place

so calmly

yet a nostalgic feeling suddenly rush in

then the light begin to fades

from the place where I sat

believing that it will return back

from the time it just disappeared

and now time have been moving

from hour

to a minute

then second

yet no one came

the shining day have just end

practically covering every illuminating thing

fading from inch by inch

until I lose my ever eyesight

now, the joy turned to nothing

for it just spoiled every bit of it

the greatest disguise of life have overruled

and left a tear in my eyes

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"meeting you was the best thing happen in my life. having you in my life is more than i ask for. now being with you is a life that i wanted." -gab david

…is there A month of LOVE?

by gab david

8.43 am / office while listening to the OST of Full House (I Think I)

February 1, 2006

I woke up because of the text message that arrives this morning. It came from my brothers’ girlfriend, angel, saying that she is okay (because the last time I talk to her she was crying so hard because she and my brother have misunderstanding). Actually she text me last night while I about to close my eyes. Just asking how am I doing?(using her GLOBE number) . anyhow, due to that text my body needs to move because its already seven o’clock in the morning and it’s the first day of the month (which is also known as the “month of LOVE”). I have very terrible two dreams before I was distracted with the ring on my phone. This has no connection to the month of love. The first one is about, myself and siblings where together for a travel in Hong Kong which is so different thing. But it’s made me feel we are so close and having fun. From the time of departure until to the arrival in the place and the excitement can be seen in every face. That’s so odd? In every dreams that I’ve encountered before (those I could remember only) this is one of the best that happen. Because of that I suddenly miss my siblings and the jokes we always do everytime we are together (which only happen every December – Christmas break).

My life was so simple (same as my siblings). We were brought up by our mother on our side. Everything what we are right now and have is all because of her as well as those people that surrounds on us. We’ve been through so much challenge in life and all of it became learning to each everyone of us. Now, I am really proud of who am I right now. Its all because of her. The hardship she made as well as her (unending) love for us to thick or thin. If I’ll be given a chance to thank her, I will do it to a place where she loves. A place she always dreams of. Where everyone are there, from her siblings to her (closest) friends and of course her precious gems (her children) with no crying but only happiness. Because of that I salute you my ever “MOTHER”. We always love you and that’s a “FACT”.

Now, the big question is here again. …is there a month of love? A disturbing question that really bothers me once in-awhile or when the month of February comes. I’ve known several stories (and most of them happen in real life). From happiness and giggles evrytime they mention the sweetness they been through (even it may sound simple or even too common for the others). On the other hand, the tears I shared even sometimes I wanted to kill it for them just to ease the pains that they are holding inside. I may not known most of the best stories or the saddest love stories in life but if I sum all of them its more than I ever wanted. The ever presence of their trust given to me is too much. And be the crying shoulder, whether a man or a woman, whenever they need one. All I know is that, I am really proud because I have the gift to listen (thank GOD for giving it to me) and because of that they trust me (as well as their secrets in life). *wink*. It’s so funny , you know why? One of my dorm mate are really worried (in a funny face) shouting with me, “Shit! February na still I can’t find someone to date 14 is near!” listening to his, worry ness in life. I, too, think twice. An I even smiled back with a little bit bother ness inside me. But, after it sink in to my mind. I just smile back again and said to myself that, “it’s okay, life must move on and if there’s someone out there for me it will just come in the right time”.

But, how come February was chosen the month of love? What’s with this month that people get crazy about. Okay, okay, I am not saying I am not looking forward to this month but it just gives me an odd feeling why we get the sudden feeling. Come to think of this, when love talks, there is no time nor month should be needed. Am I right? There should be any designated time for it. When it struck you, that’s it! Regardless of the time and the month or even the place where both of you are standing. What is important that moment you and your behalf shared same feelings. together with it is that you shred you wing to each other. From there you can fly and “be-as-one”. I know this may sound corny but its what really happen. Everything you have in yourself is now being shared to your behalf. And that’s the same with your behalf.

Hay, that feeling… How I miss it. It’s been awhile since I felt it. But, I have no regrets whatever happens to me. Now, I am happy and enjoying my life. Having lots of support from family as well as (closest) friends what else I wish for? I bet nothing! But, still hoping to meet my very own “behalf” in near future and spend my happy moment with her. “LOVE and LIFE” may be to different in terms but both gives memories as well as happiness in every human being. It may be harsh sometimes but in the end everything will be smooth as what expected. In every tear you drop a corresponding happiness in your heart will just spread out when the right time comes. Life may too short nowadays but it can stop when love enters your way.

So, whether it’s February (the month of LOVE) or not. Let’ us all feel the love and be love. Not for the sake of having one but for the sake of sharing it to someone who really deserved. From that, everything here in this world will be ruled by one. The so-called “LOVE”.