…is there A month of LOVE?

by gab david

8.43 am / office while listening to the OST of Full House (I Think I)

February 1, 2006

I woke up because of the text message that arrives this morning. It came from my brothers’ girlfriend, angel, saying that she is okay (because the last time I talk to her she was crying so hard because she and my brother have misunderstanding). Actually she text me last night while I about to close my eyes. Just asking how am I doing?(using her GLOBE number) . anyhow, due to that text my body needs to move because its already seven o’clock in the morning and it’s the first day of the month (which is also known as the “month of LOVE”). I have very terrible two dreams before I was distracted with the ring on my phone. This has no connection to the month of love. The first one is about, myself and siblings where together for a travel in Hong Kong which is so different thing. But it’s made me feel we are so close and having fun. From the time of departure until to the arrival in the place and the excitement can be seen in every face. That’s so odd? In every dreams that I’ve encountered before (those I could remember only) this is one of the best that happen. Because of that I suddenly miss my siblings and the jokes we always do everytime we are together (which only happen every December – Christmas break).

My life was so simple (same as my siblings). We were brought up by our mother on our side. Everything what we are right now and have is all because of her as well as those people that surrounds on us. We’ve been through so much challenge in life and all of it became learning to each everyone of us. Now, I am really proud of who am I right now. Its all because of her. The hardship she made as well as her (unending) love for us to thick or thin. If I’ll be given a chance to thank her, I will do it to a place where she loves. A place she always dreams of. Where everyone are there, from her siblings to her (closest) friends and of course her precious gems (her children) with no crying but only happiness. Because of that I salute you my ever “MOTHER”. We always love you and that’s a “FACT”.

Now, the big question is here again. …is there a month of love? A disturbing question that really bothers me once in-awhile or when the month of February comes. I’ve known several stories (and most of them happen in real life). From happiness and giggles evrytime they mention the sweetness they been through (even it may sound simple or even too common for the others). On the other hand, the tears I shared even sometimes I wanted to kill it for them just to ease the pains that they are holding inside. I may not known most of the best stories or the saddest love stories in life but if I sum all of them its more than I ever wanted. The ever presence of their trust given to me is too much. And be the crying shoulder, whether a man or a woman, whenever they need one. All I know is that, I am really proud because I have the gift to listen (thank GOD for giving it to me) and because of that they trust me (as well as their secrets in life). *wink*. It’s so funny , you know why? One of my dorm mate are really worried (in a funny face) shouting with me, “Shit! February na still I can’t find someone to date 14 is near!” listening to his, worry ness in life. I, too, think twice. An I even smiled back with a little bit bother ness inside me. But, after it sink in to my mind. I just smile back again and said to myself that, “it’s okay, life must move on and if there’s someone out there for me it will just come in the right time”.

But, how come February was chosen the month of love? What’s with this month that people get crazy about. Okay, okay, I am not saying I am not looking forward to this month but it just gives me an odd feeling why we get the sudden feeling. Come to think of this, when love talks, there is no time nor month should be needed. Am I right? There should be any designated time for it. When it struck you, that’s it! Regardless of the time and the month or even the place where both of you are standing. What is important that moment you and your behalf shared same feelings. together with it is that you shred you wing to each other. From there you can fly and “be-as-one”. I know this may sound corny but its what really happen. Everything you have in yourself is now being shared to your behalf. And that’s the same with your behalf.

Hay, that feeling… How I miss it. It’s been awhile since I felt it. But, I have no regrets whatever happens to me. Now, I am happy and enjoying my life. Having lots of support from family as well as (closest) friends what else I wish for? I bet nothing! But, still hoping to meet my very own “behalf” in near future and spend my happy moment with her. “LOVE and LIFE” may be to different in terms but both gives memories as well as happiness in every human being. It may be harsh sometimes but in the end everything will be smooth as what expected. In every tear you drop a corresponding happiness in your heart will just spread out when the right time comes. Life may too short nowadays but it can stop when love enters your way.

So, whether it’s February (the month of LOVE) or not. Let’ us all feel the love and be love. Not for the sake of having one but for the sake of sharing it to someone who really deserved. From that, everything here in this world will be ruled by one. The so-called “LOVE”.