The last time…

By gab david
8.11 pm / doms room (235 east 2 republic - dorm)
December 1, 2005

It’s been awhile since I said this,
“When was the last time I smiled with my closest friend?”
I’ve been trying to recall it
Deeply digging into the deepest subconscious ness
Like drilling towards my innermost soul
Dissecting every bit and layer of my memory
Until it reaches to the end point where the source is settling

But I could not figure when was it
The true essence of freedom ness
That once ran into my blood
Like the laughter in every face
Or even the joy that can be seen in the life of every child
And even the sudden momentum that (keep on) linger(ing) in their lives

Or this,
“When was the last time I felt the warmth of a hug?”
And suddenly feel the fast rushing blood inside me
Even the eagles’ eyes are useless
For I already have the indescribable feeling
And even the mountain can move at the same time

This may be hard to comprehend
This notion that (keep on) shout(ing) from within
From the moment I glance the farthest place
Gazing through the unrestrained fields
Wandering and wondering

After a long day
The world has just evaded the light
And even the darkness has started to rule
Covering every bit of sight I partake
Like the slowly conquering silence

Now, thru this non-sense notion
A newly born resolution has erupted
Crying all out and only I can hear
Crashing every bit of my nerves
From the smallest particles inside
Through the deepest senses of understanding

The weak ness of this life that I partake
Has now turned into a nostalgic life
A point of question or assurance
For this will be a beginning
Of the last time…