By gab david
When was the best time to tell this?
“ …I just want to make it clear to you that even though years have been pass by, it doesn’t mean I ignored this true feeling I have inside me since I first met you. I know this may be a risky action as well as decision that I need to do for such reason I’ve waited for four years to complete and decide that this is the right time and one of this days I’ll express it. I’ll just knock on your door with an empty hand just my sincere love on my heart. Finally, I can already express my true intentions and express the true and honest feeling that keep on shouting inside my heart since I first met you in the car park outside the place where I stayed. But, how come there is this small thorn that keeping me stop to do it? This so-called FEAR that I might loose everything after I said my intention, then, the laughter in her eyes when we joke, the baby talk that only I can see, and the true self she entrust even how hard it is, and even the tears we shared from no one knows, despite of the true intention that I will be offering. But, when will I say this? I may loose everything and just threw away the friendship, the sharing we’ve shared and even the unexplainable feeling when I am with her, in exchange of my true feeling for her.
How come it’s hard to express and say the true feeling? What’s with it that keep me stop from doing it? I know its time for me to say and express my true affection that have been ruling my heart since the time I realize that having her might be the best gift I will be having in my life. But, shy can I do it? I waited for the right time? Yet, when I ask myself what would be the best time? Those questions that linger in my head really blocks the true emotions I been keeping.
I know that if I say it there would be result from it.
First, I may have loose her forever and never seen her for the rest of my life. For the reason I will run away for the ashamed I brought in and when that time comes I will just leave it in one corner and just be a part of my life. But, I mind you; the memories will be just lingered in my blood until I rest in this world. And one time if I will be given a chance will shared it to the people whom I believe that they deserve to have my very own unforgettable episode that happened in my life. And if GOD permits, I will pour it through writings and make a novel that dedicated for her. And shared the true meaning of true love and unending affections that ruled ones life it may be so miserable in the end but the shed tears are not regrettable for the true love have just ruled the insane man. However, from that novel the people will be touch and believe that true love are not just what we feel but its is our life. It is part of our daily living that even simple smile you shared have this so-called love. From that novel the man believe that sorry in not a question as long as the man sees the simple smile in the face everything would be fine and clear as crystals.
Secondly, if the girl says thank you and accepted my offer which is my true love and good intention and even I am willing to take the risk whatever that may come on our way and just let our love prevail. Now, changes will be seen because of the affections that ran into our veins through our heart until it spreads out in every path we partake. Like the morning fresh dew that touches every bit of existence in this world. Starting from the early morning when she opens her eyes and starts her day until it slowly hides and fades then can be call it memorable day. The smiles that I may have , everytime I am with her, and the unending experience of butterflies in my stomach that keep on coming everytime I am with her will just be a part of my daily life until I rest and let life departs without any hesitation inside. For I have the greatest gift that a man wants and ask for the rest of his life. With it, my legacy would be shared and together with it are the legacy of our love and the truthfulness of saying and offering our true self with no conviction. Together with it our hands are touching hand in hand while we walk with our simple affection and both shared through the years. Now, I can say that, my life with her was the most memorable thing that happened through my existence and with it no one could ever beat, change, and even overlaps it. The reason behind it is too simple. The time she accepts my true love and both of us shared each wing of love. Starting from the first time our eyes meet until the last breath we’ve shared. The giggles she did everytime we joke around or even the unpredictable instances that only I and she could share our lives. Or even the simple experience like looking at her while she drives the car or when the time she close her eyes because of the exhausting day. Or even the simple yet intimate massage of her back that we usually do when we were together. And lastly, when I woke up in the middle of the night then stare on her, her simplicity and innocent face that captures my ever sanity in life. With that I can ask for more nor wish. I also love to see her smiling when she land her feet on the rushing salty water that creates a excitement on her face like a child. That only I could describe. Her ever presence is more than I ask for. I have nothing to wish and dream of which I’ll not stop repeating on it.
Everything that I said above would be in good hands or will happen as long as with permission of our ALMIGHTY GOD and everything I wish will be granted. And if that happen I can now move on then GOD will gives us the most precious gift, having our very own child, it would be too much for we’ll be one of the complete family and our lives will just be as what most people wish for. For now, all I wish is that I have the courage to say….with that, everything will just smoothly follow as what I wanted”.
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“…a little bit of this, and a little of that,
Would it be too hard? But, with true love,
Life is not a question…” – gab david
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