…have you experience this?

By gab david

12.03 pm/ office while listening pinoy ako compiled album

January 19, 2006

Have you ever experience this. it may sound crazy but I just experience it and just happened this morning while walking toward to my office at exactly 7.55 in the morning. This will make you think or might feel naïve or even “taasan ako ng kilay”. but the REaction might be funny yet touching. If ever this happens to you, mind you!

I was already passing through the University Theater and partly in front of College of Music building. When there are two Special Security Brigade sitting on the bench on my left and some cars passing through as well as some morning joggers and cyclist on my right side. The sun was almost on my top waving together with it were strong fresh rays. As I continue my steps. I notice, partly on my ten o’clock, a boy together with his companion (probably mother or yaya or tita). They both walking on the fresh green grass of lagoon park. I was disturbed and immediately caught my attention, because of the little boys’ loud giggles and laughter. Which makes me smile (then I just felt this peaceful thing inside me).

Hearing a child laughter or squirt can really move me so much. It’s like I am going back to my younger age with worriless in life.

Anyhow, may I now continue my unexplainable and unfathomable incident which I can’t really forget and until this moment it still lingering on my head. As I stare them, to the boy and his companion, am mumbling words was really flying on the path where I was walking. As I walk through and get closer to them the mumbling words I’ve heard was starting to get clearer and clearer. He was saying, “Daddy! Daddy! Daddy!” I thought he was calling his father which is running on the oval or probably at my side or one of the cyclists. However, when I turn around, with out any conviction, I saw nothing. So, I said to myself (with a puzzled notion inside me), “where is his father and whom was he referring and calling?” then, suddenly when I was about twenty feet from them, I saw him looking at me. At first, I just walk and didn’t mind him. Yet, the boy was not stopping calling and shouting, “daddy, daddy, daddy” so, I turn around again and search for the person whom he referring. But, for the second time around, there was no one at my side or even cyclist and joggers near to me. So, I just look at the boy. As I look at him, the boy just smile at me and called me daddy. That instance, I was moved and think deeply. The sudden feeling I just felt that immediately emerge on me (while walking) and even the “voice” of the (innocent) child while laughing at the same time shouting the word, “DADDY”. As I stared him for quite some time (probably I stop for a seconds) froze and even my time was just stop. Its like a sudden blow had just slap on my whole body and I can’t move.

This may be too normal to you or might already experience it or even heard it from the stories from the people you’ve met. But this may sound nothing to some people yet “mind you” that simple word which we always heard ever since we learn and understand the said word is something we didn’t expect . but I tell you this, because of that word I bet it is so powerful that even the universe can be move by it. Now, I understand the true feeling why a parent shed a tear when they heard them calling mom or dad. I may not be a father at this moment but the unexplainable feeling of a parent/s in such a way I could already understand it. There are many different terms that may be use like, mom, dad, papa, mama, tay, and nay, those names are really something once you have your own child or children. Now, I know, even I am not having one the true essence of being a parent. Its funny to think and that moving experience I had will be cherish for the rest of my life.

Now, I am (very) thankful because of that unexpected encounter I have this morning. Even at my back of my mind, I have been praying for it. Ever since I reach the age of early 20’s, and have been wishing for a child of my own. Imagining myself having him/her at my hand or just stare on his/her innocent face while singing my very own lullaby at any given time. Seeing him/her crying or even smiling as well as the way they close their eyes when night time comes was more than I ask for. Those memorable feeling I have heard and shared by my closest friends who have one was make me feel the sudden excitement that someday I’ll have one too. To be honest, hearing every bit of stories make me wonder and sometimes (with crazy notion in my head) asking for one already. But, I know GOD has plan for me maybe not now but tomorrow. Got it!

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…so starting now. I would be living my life to the simplest way and let the childlike that been lurking inside and overruled my life once in a while. As long as I live in this unpredictable tomorrow!