by gab david
january 21 2004
to my love,
it's been so long since i wrote you a letter. i cannot remember when was the last. but, never mind what is important is that i am again writing you. i have many things to say. i want you to know and share all my sentiments about what really am thinking for the past two years. the things that relates both man and woman. i may be sound puzzle but just sit there and read and try to figure it out. i been thinking about a year or two already since i went here in U.P. diliman. i don't know if i am just a sensitive or sentimental person but whatever of the two i guess it is nice for me. the feeling i have right now never stop me from making it more proud and still pushing myself to reach that thing i cannot reach before. i been living here in this world for almost 25 years but i still wondering why i am here. so stupid to ask that "question" but for me it is important. i don't know what lies beneath me. but what really i know is that i am here for more purpose in life. since i was i little boy i was so happy and seen the real world. i've learned that there are different colors and when you mix it with one another it can create a new one and it is an exciting. i live in a city with almost people recognizes one another but nonetheless i cannot memorize everybody's name. the sense of belongingness was really at the top. as the time pass i realize more and more things that can be seen in this world. a sudden noisy confusions really runs in my mind that even i cannot just resolve it but i wonder and try to think that someday i may have the cure for it. unfortunately until now i cannot resolve the true reality that runs in this world. now i am taking my master in population in u.p. diliman still i been searching. but i am proud to say that the childish like still runs in my life. how i envy the little children that runs in the street with no under short not thinking of anything that somebody is staring their private part but who cares as long they are happy there’s no one can stop them. i too have same experience but still until this very moment of time if only i could live like the children that i been seeing in the streets i will be glad and be happy. but as i grew old and reach the certain age i cannot just ignore the real life that lies with me. i cannot hold the time and said please stop but just feel it and try to fix it if ever i have the time. it is so funny that many people thinks that being a mature person should hold the highest position in life. well, i guess i agree to some point but try to think this "what if all the people would think that the highest position in life is to be a child regardless what age he or she is" does it bother you. well, i guess no because every body is is busy doing and reaching their goal. the goal that they have been pursuing ever since they step in the school and the first step they did when they enter the classroom. try to think this it is so happy to see that people may always ask for help because they cannot do such thing even though how high their position in the society. but try to analyze it. is there something that resembles in the manner of act the those in high position people and the manner of asking for help? have you see the pattern that even the child did it every time he or she cannot reach a spoon in the table nor the water in front of the table. anyhow, living in this world should not just work and work and be the top of the world try to live like a child and reminisce the childlike that you have before and you'll feel the sudden change. and the simple smile that the innocent child have been doing. nobody can explains it even the great scholars that have living for years. don't try to loose the childlike that you have. you can never tell what will bring this to you tomorrow. try to think and look deeper in your mind, well noisy mind ops.. working mind and just search like the antivirus looking for possible error in your pc. when you finally find it try to grasp it and never loose it again. the feeling that you'll be having is nothing could compare only you can experience it. try not to think of what the other people would say just try to feel the different feeling you have. there's nothing would make you proud and there's no harm on trying it. now if you have that sudden enjoyment in your life try to live with it.i may not be a good writer nor a speaker that you should be following and believing but i just want to ask you and everybody to try it. have that different feeling am i experiencing ever since i was a young boy. i may be acting like a child but i never regret it until this very moment of time. have you look at your picture when you where child. can you still remember the first flavor of ice cream you wanted to buy and taste. can you still remember the routine you do when you woke up when you are still 5 years old. those things that may not seem important but when you think of that and let it runs in your mind it will really reflect who you are right now. try to do that you will never ask for more happiness in your life because the best life that you have was when you were still a child. i did not write this letter to make you feel something that you won't like but i write this because i still have the childlike in my heart until now. try it and you'll see what i really saying.
january 21 2004
to my love,
it's been so long since i wrote you a letter. i cannot remember when was the last. but, never mind what is important is that i am again writing you. i have many things to say. i want you to know and share all my sentiments about what really am thinking for the past two years. the things that relates both man and woman. i may be sound puzzle but just sit there and read and try to figure it out. i been thinking about a year or two already since i went here in U.P. diliman. i don't know if i am just a sensitive or sentimental person but whatever of the two i guess it is nice for me. the feeling i have right now never stop me from making it more proud and still pushing myself to reach that thing i cannot reach before. i been living here in this world for almost 25 years but i still wondering why i am here. so stupid to ask that "question" but for me it is important. i don't know what lies beneath me. but what really i know is that i am here for more purpose in life. since i was i little boy i was so happy and seen the real world. i've learned that there are different colors and when you mix it with one another it can create a new one and it is an exciting. i live in a city with almost people recognizes one another but nonetheless i cannot memorize everybody's name. the sense of belongingness was really at the top. as the time pass i realize more and more things that can be seen in this world. a sudden noisy confusions really runs in my mind that even i cannot just resolve it but i wonder and try to think that someday i may have the cure for it. unfortunately until now i cannot resolve the true reality that runs in this world. now i am taking my master in population in u.p. diliman still i been searching. but i am proud to say that the childish like still runs in my life. how i envy the little children that runs in the street with no under short not thinking of anything that somebody is staring their private part but who cares as long they are happy there’s no one can stop them. i too have same experience but still until this very moment of time if only i could live like the children that i been seeing in the streets i will be glad and be happy. but as i grew old and reach the certain age i cannot just ignore the real life that lies with me. i cannot hold the time and said please stop but just feel it and try to fix it if ever i have the time. it is so funny that many people thinks that being a mature person should hold the highest position in life. well, i guess i agree to some point but try to think this "what if all the people would think that the highest position in life is to be a child regardless what age he or she is" does it bother you. well, i guess no because every body is is busy doing and reaching their goal. the goal that they have been pursuing ever since they step in the school and the first step they did when they enter the classroom. try to think this it is so happy to see that people may always ask for help because they cannot do such thing even though how high their position in the society. but try to analyze it. is there something that resembles in the manner of act the those in high position people and the manner of asking for help? have you see the pattern that even the child did it every time he or she cannot reach a spoon in the table nor the water in front of the table. anyhow, living in this world should not just work and work and be the top of the world try to live like a child and reminisce the childlike that you have before and you'll feel the sudden change. and the simple smile that the innocent child have been doing. nobody can explains it even the great scholars that have living for years. don't try to loose the childlike that you have. you can never tell what will bring this to you tomorrow. try to think and look deeper in your mind, well noisy mind ops.. working mind and just search like the antivirus looking for possible error in your pc. when you finally find it try to grasp it and never loose it again. the feeling that you'll be having is nothing could compare only you can experience it. try not to think of what the other people would say just try to feel the different feeling you have. there's nothing would make you proud and there's no harm on trying it. now if you have that sudden enjoyment in your life try to live with it.i may not be a good writer nor a speaker that you should be following and believing but i just want to ask you and everybody to try it. have that different feeling am i experiencing ever since i was a young boy. i may be acting like a child but i never regret it until this very moment of time. have you look at your picture when you where child. can you still remember the first flavor of ice cream you wanted to buy and taste. can you still remember the routine you do when you woke up when you are still 5 years old. those things that may not seem important but when you think of that and let it runs in your mind it will really reflect who you are right now. try to do that you will never ask for more happiness in your life because the best life that you have was when you were still a child. i did not write this letter to make you feel something that you won't like but i write this because i still have the childlike in my heart until now. try it and you'll see what i really saying.
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