enjoying the day...
hmm...the day is really tempting. wow, this is life.the sun was shining above and the heat is really strong. it really shows, you know why, i really literally speaking, sweating . but, its okay, together with it was the love that runs in my mind which makes me so complete.
i was sitting in one of the corner beside of an old acacia tree, merely thirty to forty years old, that give me shade from the rays of the sun. the day was nearly near to end. around three o'clock in the afternoon. i was alone and reading my old time favorite novel, entitled by the river piedra, i sat down and wept by paolo coelho, and i am relly enjoying it. while i am reading people are passingby from all corner of the park. on the other side of me, there was once a couple, an old old one, both are in the late sixties or probably seventies, both of them argueing of something yet while they are conversing i notice that despite the tention their still holds their hands while walking. inspite of the eagerness of anger that flows in their veins still their love for thyself is really visible. then, i just smile and a sudden envy touch my emotion.
how, ironic to see that, inspite of the heat the the sun gives as well as the argueing still the couple are continuing walking together and the "love" was there flowing in their eyes. that instant moment in their life i was really touch by their immeasurable affection. it's like i was blown away because of some efforts i did, before, yet when i look back and compare it to them its like nothing or not even close to the hardship their been through.
anyhow, so the time have past, so i continue, i get the bag at my side and grab the juice i brought and a pieces of cookies, choco chips which i always told to my friends its the local chips ahoy, so i get one and eat. then, i continue and read the novel. iwhen i was to finish the next chapter. suddenly, a strong air blew so strong from the east...
i feel a sudden cold in my body. its like the wind of december has just touch me again and christmas season have just returned. then, i brush my hands to my shoulder to create heat in my body. so i did it for a couple of times....
while i was rubbing my shoulders, a leaf just fall into my head and slowly fall into my nose then face and then drop into my legs.
i look up, try to figure it out where the leaf come from. then i notice the tree was green as ever. i never see a single dead leaf on it. so i continue searching. i look at one side then move to the other side. still i cannot find even a single branch that have dry or even dead leaves.
so, i just grab again my book and continue reading.
while i was reading, a thought knock! at first i did not mind it. but, while reading the thoughts are really running and keep on knocking. getting harder and harder that even my consentration in the story that i am reading was being diverted. so, i stop, and entertain it.
guess what, the thought that kept on knocking inside my mind was about the event when the dried and dead leaf fall into my head a while ago.
now, i wonder, think and try to connect it to my past life.sometimes when i was alone. i used to be like the leaf. before i belong to group that are so green and strong groups of leaves. so lovely, adored, strong, the color was really stunning, and alive. everybody is having their differences yet never come to a point that overlaps each other because for sure the respect on thyself was much more important. so, the days have past and months. everyday, my color gets greener and greener. its like my days are always complete and perfect. there is no door for suffering or even hatered. even how strong the strom blew me. still i can manage and show my joyful and strong self. i always make some funny things and have fun to the others. talking to my friends, parent, and even my siblings was much more funnier. happiness are really overflowing inside out of me. there might be some problems yet it can be easily resolve and never thinks it was really a hindrance to my happines in life.
one day, a sudden thing happend. the color of my life starts to fades. the reason was not really sure. even my family really are puzzled up and was really looking for the right explanation how come of all people it was i who experience it.
so, the days have past. the discoloration have been getting stronger and stronger. at first, i am thinking positively and don't mind the discoloration. yet, every time i ignore it.the discolotation statrts to doubled and sometimes tripled. so, from that moment, i stop. my usual routine thing was halt and then i started to figure it out. but, when i started to fix it and try to do some remedy on it. i was too late on my actions. my color then was all brown and dried. a minute or two i will fall on the branch and leave the group.
then, next thing i know i was already floating and loosing my grip on the branch. leaving the group and i have nothing to do with it. i fall and i have nothing to do from that moment but to cry out load. then, ask why?...
from that moment my life stop. and all my dreams shuttered. like a domino falling one by one. i can't blame the people around me. and even thyself. yet, a sudden tear fall onto my eyes and drop to my hands. from that experience a sudden realization was born.
it is like all my hardship was strated to move up. a vast of adrenaline have burst and pump into my veins. i realize that, life niether was not just fame nor happines. modesty and humility was much more to be needed to survive. total balance in life should be entertained. from then on, i moved and strated to climbed. because of that, from dead and dried leaf a new root burst and new born tree has just evolved through me...
being who you are really makes ones person live what ever he or she wanted yet being true to thyself is much more important. so that, life will be in balance. because of that thought, i just smile and continue and read the novel.
the darkness of the night is near. the light of the morning has come to an end. it was already five o'clock in the afternoon. lots of people have passby, yet, i did not noticed it because i was really busy of reading. even the children not far from me was really shouting and telling to his father that he wanted to play more. even the laughters of the other children was conquering the park. its like there will be no tomorrow. the happiness they shared really gives joy to all people.
then, i stop and told myself i to ready myself also and need to go home. i'll just continue my reading tomorrow. while, walking home, an accident glance, not too far where i walk, the couple i saw awhile ago, remember it. yes, the old couple. now, they were sitting on the porch. guess what both of them are laughing. like the children who plays in the park. then while looking at them i noticed one thing. which it really touched me more and even let a tear fall unto my eyes. i saw the old couple was still holding their hands and their eyes were filled of joys...
now i realized that " ...even how hard life may it sound,
still there is a window for us to stop,
just smile and let the childlike ruled our lives..."
- gabdavid
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